I graduated with a Bachelor of Arts degree in Communication in 2015. Recently, I graduated with a Master of Science degree in Marketing in January of this year. In between receiving both degrees, I explored the possibility of becoming a teacher. To my surprise, I actually enjoy teaching. I had a full-time teaching job at one point, but due to certain circumstances, I had to walk away from it.
Fast forward to the summer Chlo was conceived, I was a substitute teacher part-time. I had plenty of opportunities that had become available during that time. However, I wasn’t ready to step into that field yet. When I found out I was pregnant with Chlo, I started panicking and took the first job that was offered to me. I started out with Morley as an Advisor in 2017 and later was offered the Social Community Manager position in 2019. The last position I had with them allowed me to work from home and it provided me the ability to be at home with my kid fulltime.
I love every moment I’m with my kid. However, I knew this current position wasn’t something I wanted to do forever. I allowed myself to stay stuck in a situation because I told myself that “good mothers” stayed home with their child. I allowed the negativity to consume my mind to the point where I was stressed out every day, I was yelling way more than usual, my performance was slacking tremendously at work, and I was just in a funk. I completed my graduate program in January and I was still fueling my mind with negative talk. I started praying and nothing changed. One day, one of my good friends gave me a pep talk. This wasn’t her typically things will work itself out pep talks either. This pep talk came straight from God, but he used her to deliver the message to me. She told me that every mother is different and Chlo doesn’t need a perfect mom, she just needs me. She proceeded to tell me that working and following my dreams doesn’t make me a “bad mom”. However, it made me a mom that Chlo loves and would grow to appreciate.
While I am very thankful for the experience I had at my previous job, it was time to go. I know for a fact that teaching and writing is my calling, among other things. I knew for a fact that I couldn’t allow the fear of not being a “good mother” stop me from pursuing my dreams. Chlo will love me regardless, as I take very good care of her and I love her unconditionally. I make it my goal to spend as much time with my kid as I can, despite what’s going on with me. Pursuing a job outside of the home doesn’t make me a “bad mom”. In fact, it allows us to spend some time apart, which is healthy.
Although, the schools are closed at this moment. I refuse to give up on my dreams of becoming a teacher and a writer fulltime. In fact, I’m working on a few projects as we speak. I decided to look at this time as a way for me to get my mind together. In addition to that, I get to spend more time with Chlo at home before she has to go to daycare on a daily basis.
I want each of my moms in the world to know that it doesn’t make you a “bad mom” for working outside of the home. It doesn’t make you a “bad mom” for wanting or having a life outside of your child. Before you and I became mothers, we were people who had our own life to live. It’s so easy to get swept up in being a mother! However, I am here to tell you not to forget about you. You deserve your dreams to become your reality too.
Until next time,
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